April 11, 2011 by crushingcarly
I’ve let go. I’ve carried a grudge for so long that I can’t bear it much longer. I’ve come to the realization that if you hadn’t have come into my life, I would’ve been stuck in a hole for a long time. I would have let people cover me with dirt, burying me alive. You were one of the people that gave me hell. You, Emily, Cape, Casey… I’ve grown stronger because of you. It took me a while to see, but I don’t have to be like you or be the person you wanted me to be. I can be me. I am me.
You put me through hell. You slapped me in the face with your harsh judgements and false accusations. I let you be my puppet master for a while, but I finally got off my knees and stood up. I grew. Because of the shit you did to me. The things you lead me to believe. The way you made me feel about myself. I stood up and vowed I wouldn’t let myself fall like that again.
You apologized. And even then I wasn’t able to fully accept it. That was months ago. I think I would be able to see you as a human now. I don’t know if I’d ever be able to respect you like I used to, but I don’t hate you. I no longer cringe when you walk past me in the hallway. I realize everything that happened between us happened a long time ago, but it’s time you know I’ve forgiven you.
I’m not sure if you care or will ever see this. But I know that if you ever read this, you’ll know it’s meant for you.
So, long story short: I’m over it.
About
this seems to be my life.
take me or leave me.
